Plain and simple my clay sucks. My red clay has this horrible grog in it that makes everything look gross and my casting body dunts to hell and isn't microwave/dishwasher safe. Ahhhggg! I have so much time and money invested in earthenware that I feel I would completely back track if I were to move to a mid-range body. My goal is to produce ware that is FUNCTIONAL. Do you know how much I use my microwave and dishwasher? For God's sake, I use a computer to generated images to put on my work, yet I can't stick the thing in a modern appliance without the fear of it breaking?
...::sighs:: I might be done now. I wrote all of that in anger. Everything I want to complain about is just so superficial and equates to me having a bad day.
::takes deep breath:: Let's evaluate.
Q: Mitzi, what is your main goal for the future?
A: To go to a reputable graduate ceramics program.
Q: How are you going to accomplish getting into that program?
A: I need (or feel as if I need) a cohesive body of work and a beefed up resume. I feel as if my job experience section is well fed, so I need to work on the exhibiting portion.
Q: What steps are you taking to exhibit more?
A: Applying for juried shows, solo shows, and group shows, and trying to get into more galleries. Basically, I need to put myself out there. When I put myself out there, I need to make sure I build a good reputation, so that people will buy my work in the future and recommend it to others.
Q: What are your plans for building a good reputation?
A: In order to build a good reputation, I need good work.
Q: And how does one make good work?
A: In order to make good work, I need to invest.more.time.
::insert humility and embarrassment here:: Well now...this definitely sheds a new light on things. Obviously, I need to apologize to my clay...
I do not want to divorce you, earthenware. You produce beautiful, bright glaze finishes. You are cost efficient and relatively one of the most environmentally friendly bodies to fire. My anger was misdirected. It was my fault for not listening to you. You are sick and I expected results from you that you could not deliver. I will get you appropriate medication and help you recuperate. I will not give up on you. We will get through this dear friend. ::hugs::